A Date With My Daughter & Theo

Theobroma Cacao @ New York Botanical Gardens

This morning I woke up craving a box of chocolate. (Yes, Theobrama cacao!) I love boxed chocolates. The fancier the better. Truffles aren't my favorite but I do love navigating a collection of chocolates. This can get a little dicey because I am allergic to nuts but, I'm a maverick. No really I am. I don't own an epi pen and could easily go into anaphylactic shock if eat a nut. . . . See maverick . Anyway, I love the thrill of guessing what each one tastes like and savoring that first bite. It really is one of life's greatest pleasures. . . Meh. . . I got out of bed and went for a long walk. Its not Valentine's Day, Mother's Day, my birthday, or Christmas so keep it moving sister. As I proceeded dutifully through my day little annoyances crept in. Children not prepared for their weekend classes, strange incessant calls from siblings that went nowhere, and ridiculous lines at Costco. . . The day literally went from technicolor to black and white in an instant. I know it doesn't seem like much but it was all disrupting my chill.

By early evening I had all but given up on my chocolate dreams. Time was collapsing on me and I no longer had the desire to run to the Godiva Store. I decide to run the the supermarket to see what brands and varieties were available. It was a long shot but surprisingly the local Stop-n-Shop came through in the clutch! With my daughter's eyes alight with anticipation we perused the different brands, and counted pieces per box, while our mouths watered over flavor selections. We purchased two boxes. (It was buy one get one free! We decided that if they were good we would save a box for Father's Day. Mmmhmmm)

After dinner we had ourselves a chocolate party and finally a smile swept across our faces along with the feeling of contentment.

I don't know why I tried to deny myself that little bit of pleasure today. There sure as hell was no reward for it. In fact I think that part of the reason way my day unraveled the way it did is because I was ignoring an inner desire. I actually made light of my own desires. I'm not saying that you should go around eating whole boxes of chocolate, but what I am saying is we have urges that we ignore everyday. For whatever reason we don' t answer our own inner voice and the consequences have the potential to be long-lasting.. For me it was a bad day but perhaps next time it won't be. Is something call you? Perhaps yo should answer the call. You never know where it may lead.